Yeah for the new year! Are you feeling feisty and ready to conquer? I am.
It’s been awhile since I’ve made a Spirit Doll. It’s been awhile since I’ve connected with any specific Goddess.
The last two years have been rough. I feel like I’ve been in constant contact with my personal guides and ancestors, begging them to help me process the anger and the outrage. Frustrated by my inability to make the big changes that the world needs right now.
Some artist excel in that kind of energy.
So no art and very little writing; most of that was scrapped because I couldn’t stop the venom from leaching into it. If I couldn’t contribute to the greater good, then I shouldn’t be adding to the collective misery. Those writings will stay private.
2017 is long gone and 2018 is over.
Welcome 2019 and this little swirly ball of hope and light; This warm tingly desire to create art.
So I sat down one night after the kids were asleep. I wrapped myself in the warm fuzzy blanket that my (soon to be) daughter-in-law gifted me, lit a candle and called in my ancestors.
What do I want? I asked them, What is the potential of this tiny seed I feel swirling around in my magic?
(because you can’t manifest if you don’t know what you want.)
I needed clarity, I needed a picture in my head and a feeling in my heart.
I didn’t have to wait long. I felt the warm glow of hope. I visioned a pictures of dolls, fully sculpted and clothed in funky fibers, bright colors and pussy hats. Goddesses, spirits, and physical representation of energy and abstract ideas.
I felt my crazy Aunt Joy, who passed away last summer. She too, was a doll maker and jack of all arts. Her daughter gave me all her doll making supplies. Bright colors and radical ideas were kind of her thing.
Yes, this is what my soul desires. To re-connect with the hopeful parts of myself, to reach out and offer the world a little bit of my enthusiastic optimism.
Then we had a planning session. Because they know me. I was given strict instructions.
- No more than 6 dolls this year.
- I must have a clearly defined project design sheet before I can start.
- I must log my time and materials.
- No ridiculous deadlines that make me dread the making process
I’m also allowed only one alternate art type to clean my pallet. They’re pushing for art journal. They tell me Art journals are needed plus I enjoy the process of making them. I have a tendency to let my creative to-do list get excessively long, try to do it all and then burn out in frustration.
Maybe because it’s January, or maybe it’s because it’s a rather mild winter, or maybe it’s just the Old Hag calling to me. I’ve decided to re-visit with Cailleach Bhuer. It’s been 5 years. I think she has something else to tell me.
Pictures will be coming soon, I’m taking my time, enjoying the process.
What are your big plans for 2019? What are your personal conquests for the year?
Drop me a note and let me know so I can cheer you on.